the fat girl goes to South Beach

Can I start again tomorrow?  Can I?  

Tomorrow is the first day of my new diet.  I am going to give the South Beach Diet a go.  I'll be in "Phase One" which is the strictest phase of the SB Diet.  I am only allowed to eat lean meat, legumes, low fat diary products and veggies.  Give or take a condiment or two, but that's about it until "Phase Two" when I will slowly re-introduce good carbs back into my diet. 

Following this diet guidelines is supposed to eliminate cravings for all the bad foods.  So, I'm hoping that holds true.

As usual, I'll keep ya posted.  

how about weight watchers

I'm watching The Biggest Looser. Final Four. I can only imagine how that show/program would change my life. There are some awesome things about that show, and some things I don't quite agree with. But, I'm not going to go there right now.

Body For Life is gone. Now, I am doing Weight Watchers. Again. Week Four this week. I've lost 8.2 pounds in three weeks. Tracking my points, etc. I am trying, once again to change my life. We are eating healthy and I am writing down everything.

I have not given up.

what i mean... for now

I am back in the groove. I've been on vacation for several weeks. And when I say vacation, I mean I vacationed from everything. And when I say everything, I mean I quit eating healthy and ate whatever I wanted. And when I say whatever I wanted, I mean I ate the whole, frigging back of mini-snickers! And when I say the whole, frigging bag of snickers... well, that's exactly what I mean!

But! [And that's a big BUT!] I am DONE with that. [Well, for now. Being realistic about my record... only life will tell if I am truly done.. but I can say for now.]

I like to say I am doing "healthy living" right now. I don't want to pay WW $40 bucks a month when I already know all the things I need to do to loose weight. Yeah, yeah, just because I'm a fat girl doesn't mean I lack knowledge. It is not a matter of knowing; it's a matter of doing.

Me, the hubby and my sister are being accountable to each other and our commitment [for now] to healthy living. We drew up some weight loss charts and everything. Aren't we cool? I lost three pounds our first week. Not bad. Beats gaining.

Anyway, back to the groove of healthy living.

PS Thanks for the support guys. It really blesses me.

the tip of the fatberg

I have started too many diets in my 29 years. Despite my best efforts to not relive those failures, they are there. Staring at me as I attempt, yet again to change my life.

I lost five pounds this past week. It's great. I am happy with the results But. I've lost five pounds before. Heck, I've just recently lost five pounds. And then gained five pounds. So, while loosing five pounds is great, it is not the end. This is just the beginning.

I ask myself, "will this really be it?" Will this be the time when my life really changes? For forever?

Oh, I so desperately hope it is. I know better than to even call this a diet. Diets don't work because diets begin and end. I don't want to ever quit eating this way. Healthy. Foods that are good for you. This is a lifestyle change; I get that. I do.

i'll start tomorrow

This morning brings new resolutions. As usual.

I have started so many diets. I could not began to count them if I tried. When I was a chubby teenager, I used to lay in bed every night and promise myself I would "start" tomorrow. My fat sister and I promised each other. The morning would come and go. Sometimes we really did diet for a few weeks, or days. Usually we were "good" until dinnertime.

I am really good at starting a diet.