south beach diet and cupcakes

The South Beach Diet is going OK.  

I miss carbs.  

We wrap up Phase One tomorrow.  So I will begin to re-introduce healthy carbs then.  One carb a day, at first.  I have really missed oatmeal.  I'm an oatmeal kind of girl.  Yum.

But, the first Phase of South Beach hasn't been that bad.  Some days were really difficult and others were pretty breezy.  

The first week, I really fought it.  I complained.  I whined.  I held cupcakes in my hand, smelled them and wanted really, really, really badly to eat them.  But, I stuck with it.

My husband is also doing the diet with me.  He needs to loose about thirty pounds.  Well, 22 pounds now.  The cutie has lost eight pounds in the past two weeks.  

Sticking it out together has helped me tremendously.  If The Husband had not been doing the plan whole heartedly, I would have given up with the cupcakes.  

So, that's my report.  What do ya think?

the fat girl goes to South Beach

Can I start again tomorrow?  Can I?  

Tomorrow is the first day of my new diet.  I am going to give the South Beach Diet a go.  I'll be in "Phase One" which is the strictest phase of the SB Diet.  I am only allowed to eat lean meat, legumes, low fat diary products and veggies.  Give or take a condiment or two, but that's about it until "Phase Two" when I will slowly re-introduce good carbs back into my diet. 

Following this diet guidelines is supposed to eliminate cravings for all the bad foods.  So, I'm hoping that holds true.

As usual, I'll keep ya posted.  

all out of self-control

I cannot quit eating.  I have gained five pounds in two weeks.  

I am eating chocolate covered oreos.  A real sin.  I have stuffed my face with bacon cheeseburgers, onion rings, sweet tea, fries, buffalo wings, pizza, chocolate cookies, peanut butter and jelly muffins, cheese doritos, cheese dip, cheetos, crackers, candy, oh, the list is awful!!

I am SOOOOOO  off the wagon.  BINGE!  FIVE DAYS OF BINGING!  

I have prayed.  I have cried.  I have promised myself I will stop.  

Yet, here I am.  Eight-thirty in the morning; eating oreos.  Chocolate-covered oreos.  

easily distracted

Today is a good day. Today, I feel on top of it. Of what, you ask? Of food addiction. Of overeating. My problem. Whatever you name it, it is what it is.

But what about tomorrow? What will that be like? I cannot promise you that tomorrow I won't binge on chocolate and chips and cheese. I might. It still calls my name. Heck, it yells my name. Screaming to me...

I'm not crazy.

Food is my drug of choice. Some people smoke. Some people drink. I eat.

Kim makes a good point here about keeping your eyes on Christ. Yeah, yeah, I know, must I bring religion into it? Well, yes, I must. You see, I'm working through a 12 step program [I'm serious about being free from food addiction!!] and I do admit there is a higher power.

Anyway. Keeping my eyes on Christ. When I start worrying too much about my problem, it gets worse. When I start focusing on eating the exactly correct kind of food, I want to eat it all. When I get tunnel vision about how fat I am and cry about being overweight, the emotions overwhelm me. BUT!!! When I "seek first the kingdom", suddenly it all seems lighter. The burden of food addiction eases.

Freedom from food addiction does not come from ME. It only comes from Christ. Thus, I fix my eyes on Him, the author and perfecter of my faith.

But, I'm so fat!! Waaaaaaa!!!!!

See how easy it is to be distracted!!

Focus on God! Focus on God!